I go back to work next week. Has it been 12 weeks already? I'm feeling panic. This hasn't been enough time. I felt this way after I had Exia too.
Panic. I have to leave my little tiny baby with someone else. He will smile at them because I won't be there. Will my work clothes fit? Why can't I wear my sweats to work? Do I have all the paperwork for my return? For AJ's start at school? Can I get all three of us out of the house in the morning and make it to work before noon? Will Andy and the kids survive dinner and bedtime without me? Pumping...lots and lots of pumping...I HATE pumping. Can I function at work with this little sleep? The commute...I HATE my commute. It just can't possibly leave me with enough time to spend with my little ones. There's not enough time.
But I'm a little excited too. A shower every day. Getting dressed up in pretty clothes and shoes. Seeing all my friends at work. Working on something interesting (I hope).
I'm just trying to focus on the pretty clothes and something interesting (I hope) part.
Good luck on Monday! Loves! And why can't we wear sweatpants to work!? It is amazing that I want to wear sweatpants but the getting dressed up part is also my favorite part!
ReplyDeleteSo did you start yesterday, Monday??? I hope it went well. It is hard and now you have a new routine to get down. I agree... pumping bites!!! It is nice to shower on a regular basis, clothes and adult interaction.
ReplyDeleteAlthough I could ready your current "something to smile about" a million times and still smile . . . could we get something new to read . . . some little two line tidbit into your life? Don't change your something to smile about though . . . just a new blog posting! Loves. Did you make it home to watch glee . . . we watched the beginning but then it was time for bed. I'll have to finish watching it tonight . . . wait there is football . . . tomorrow night.
ReplyDeleteAlthough I miss the UPS story about X . . . I do enjoy reading about sibling love! Thank you.
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